My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion for ever. (Psalm 73:26)
So true.
My body is breaking down. It’s the chemo today, but it fits with the trend. I’m not getting any stronger, faster, or fitter. I keep wearing out.
My spirit waxes and wanes. Today I ache and groan. Misery clouds the sunshine. Who knows about tomorrow?
I cannot depend on my flesh or my heart. They’re unreliable. They’re weak. They’re fickle. They’re false.
God is the one I can trust. He will not let me down. It’s not that I keep hold of him, but that he doesn’t let go of me.
Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
(Psalm 73:23)
Thank you God.
macarisms 
Praying for His strength in your weakness as you embrace that sweet poison again. Look forward to another post chemo blog 🙂
I find it very helpful to be reminded that it’s not the strength of my faith which holds me up but the strength of my God, the God of the psalmist, your God Maca.
Thanks
I feel the same
If I could carry your pain/aches for even one day for you, I would. Praying for you.
I sooo understand…. May. 29th is my next tx. I dread this always then by 2 or 3rd day I hit the major wall for many days, just not good in any way and remain to very, very tired this drives me crazier. Yes the ache the moan and thus the yuck overall. I also go back and forth on what I really want and will do…I definitely want to know my driver/mutation and going to tango with my onc. As I see others on inspire and cancer grace whose testing for such gives them the opp to have oral med targeting c and really not the horrid toxic full body we feel my friend. My prayers remain plazse dear Lord ned for years and feel well , this is my prayer for you my friend and our friends living with this horrid disease. Bless your heart. Take care. Grace and Peace.
Forgive me if this is false hope for healing. I certainly don’t want to be insensitive. I feel your blog has become an unofficial “fighting cancer blog” (among many other, great things) thus this is relevant:
http://www.gizmag.com/inhalation-chemotherapeutic-drug-lung-cancer/27640/